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Sunday Reflections 1.12.2014

This past week was fantastic!!! My oldest son and his wife, my daughter-in-law gave birth to my 3rd grandchild, a little girl, on Wednesday, January 8, 2014. The little girl weighed in at 8 lbs., 20 inches long, full head of dark hair, all ten toes and ten fingers. The little girl is perfect in everyway. I was summoned to assist with the care of their 2-year-old son, my first and only grandson to-date. I left my day job an hour early, ran by the house and gathered up a few things, e-mailed several people to help me out and do the informational presentation I was due to give Wednesday evening at the part-time job, then I headed out of Ttown to the little town 50-miles away where Project Birth was taking place.

The little girl was born at 8:27 p.m. on Wednesday evening. I stayed two days, Thursday and Friday to help out until everyone came home. Then my youngest son and his fiancé brought me back to Ttown on Friday evening.

I didn’t realize how tired I was until I crawled into my bed late Friday night. I’ve been playing catch up on my rest and sleep ever since. I’m trying to gear myself up to head back to the day job grind tomorrow (Monday) morning!!! I’m just not looking forward to going back to the office, to my current boss. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll get up and go to work in the morning, I just am not looking forward to going. I have been diligently searching for a new job, but have not found one, yet.

Tomorrow kicks off the first of my part-time job’s Spring 2014 sessions. I will be walking Monday through Thursday evenings this week and on Saturday morning. I signed up for another month of early morning Spin classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays and am thinking about signing up for the Urban Fit class that happens at 5:30 a.m. Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I am thinking all that would easily qualify for sufficient cross-training from my walking. I wonder if I really continue to watch my diet if I would start to see some weight loss and physical fitness improvement over the next 12-weeks…I know I’m going to have to kick it into a higher gear than I have been doing in order to make something happen.

I got an e-mail from a dear friend that I enjoyed on a sexual level a few years ago. He moved from Tulsa to Enid, Oklahoma then on to Denver, Colorado. We’ve stayed in touch via e-mail. I couldn’t help but smile when I read his e-mail. He’s doing fine, now semi-retired and working when he wants as a consultant. He’s met a gal that is giving him quite a run in the sex department. I couldn’t help but wonder if this friend is using some penile enhancement drugs for his erectile dysfunction. I know he was not able to get and keep and erection the few times we played, so when he mentioned that this gal sexually insatiable, I wondered exactly how that interprets with what I experienced with him…or rather didn’t experience with him. Nevertheless, he seems happy and enjoying himself. Good for him and good for the gal he’s seeing.

Other than receiving an e-mail from my friend in Denver, there’s nothing going on with regards to sex. I masturbate myself to orgasm and wash up my toy and get on with whatever I am doing around the house. I’ve given up on finding a sexually viable man on the adult sex site I’m a member of, the quality of men are just so pathetic.

Time to finish preparing for my upcoming work week and session kick-off with my walking workouts!!! Have a great week ahead!!!

An Unusual Request

I had an unusual request made of me at the last Masturbation Club session I attended. I had one of the men that is what I consider a “regular” at the noon sessions of the Masturbation Club ask me if he could lick my pussy juices off of my vibrator after I finished or orgasmed. The man made this request by note, which was handed to me by the guy stationed at the door of the hotel room where our session was happening. We “sign in” and place our donation just inside of the door of the room, the guy handed me the note. I read it and looked around the room. The man that submitted the request waved at me from across the room. I stood there and thought a minute and decided, why not? I nodded yes to him and then found where I wanted to settle in for my masturbatory indulgence.

I have to admit, I was a bit more turned on knowing that I would be handing over my vibrator to this guy to lick and suck my pussy juices when I was done…I think my pussy got a bit more juicy!!!! I know it turned me on a bit more to know that this guy was watching me and patiently waiting for me to orgasm before he would come over and I would hand him my pussy juice covered vibrator. The man was already naked and indulging in some yanking of his own hard cock. I hoped he enjoyed my masturbatory show…I know I was enjoying the whole scenario. I’m calling it an added incentive for this particular session.

It didn’t take me long to get myself into position and get myself off. I laid there a moment as I withdraw my vibrator which was all covered with my juices. The man took his cue and made his way over to where I was laying. I held up the vibrator to him and then I sat up. He sat down on the floor next to me and began to admire the juice-covered vibrator. He took his time, savoring the odiferous qualities, then ever so slowly he ran his tongue up and down the shaft of my vibrator. I was mesmerized by his deliberate licking and then, the piece de resistance, he then took the vibrator into his mouth just like he was sucking a cock!! I felt my pussy tingle with excitement…this was much hotter than I had anticipated. Nothing turns me on more than a man suck another man’s cock…the next best turn on, watching a man suck a cock-like vibrator like it was a real cock. Holy Crap, this was incredibly HOT!!!!!

This man took that vibrator and savored it like it was a real cock…I was so turned on, I began fingering my pussy which was already dripping again with excitement. It didn’t take me long to start moaning and groaning by my own hand…which only spurred the man on with his licking and sucking of my vibrator. I didn’t realize it but the rest of the room was pretty much mesmerized by the show this man and I were providing. I gasped as I orgasmed…my fingers dripping with my cum…the man then set the vibrator aside and took the wrist of the hand I had used for this impromptu masturbation. He looked at me and asked, may I? I nodded yes and he ever so slowly, licked my fingers clean of my pussy juices…then sucked each finger ever so gently, making sure he hadn’t missed a drop of my tastiness.

Time was getting away from me…I was feeling those tingles and twinges beginning again. I thanked him for his tongue bath, then took my leave, gathering up my vibrator and bag, heading to the bathroom to do some cleaning, dressing and head out.

What can I say, that was one of the most unusual requests I’ve had in a while…yet, it was one of the most rewarding masturbatory sessions I’ve enjoyed since joining the Masturbation Club.

The Masturbation Club

I mentioned in my 2014 post about having found a way to indulge in what I refer to as the best safe sex activity, masturbation! I discovered The Masturbation Club a little over two years ago and have to admit, I LOVE IT!!! For the time being, The Masturbation Club provides the “zing” that I want and need in my sex life without having to engage in an interpersonal sexual relationship.
Here is how my first Masturbation Club experience went:

The Masturbation Club
I was looking forward to my first Masturbation Club experience. The “rules of engagement” were simple enough. The group was sent an e-mail as to the date, time and location of the meeting. The donation to help out with the cost of the room at a decent hotel was a set $10 to be put in the bowl near the door of the room upon arriving.

The room or accommodations were dictated by how many folks RSVP’ed for an upcoming session. This session was to be during a noon hour. A “nooner” masturbation session sounded perfect for me. I liked the thought of going somewhere to meet some folks, getting naked and getting myself off while others watched me and I watched others. Very simple, very erotic!!!

I liked the idea that the location of my first session was near my downtown office. This session was set for a “nooner” session which spanned from 11:30 a.m. to 2:00 p.m. Come/cum and go…my lunch hour was 12:30 p.m. to 1:30 p.m. so I liked the idea that I would be arriving and masturbating about mid-way during the set time period.

I packed a little “masturbation workout” bag, which included my favorite vibrator, condoms for quick clean up, lubricant and at the last minute, I decided to include my clit cream. I would put the clit cream on my clit before leaving my office that way I would be primed and ready to go when I arrived at the masturbatory club session.

I have to admit, I was really excited about my first club session. The morning at the office was busy and the time really flew by. I made a trip to the women’s restroom about 15-minutes before I left for lunch. I slipped the clit cream in my pocket and headed down to the basement restroom. No one was around, not that it would have mattered, but I liked knowing that I was all alone and could dab the clit cream on my tiny little clitty, use the restroom and wait for the tingle to warm up my pussy…oh, what a delight to have that warmth growing between my legs as I gathered my purse and headed out for “lunch.”

I found a perfect parking place and plugged the meter for an hour and a half. I knew I wouldn’t necessarily be there for that long but wanted to be sure I had plenty of meter time without getting a parking ticket. I made my way to the elevator with my little workout bag and then up to the room number that was sent via text message a couple of hours earlier.

The room was at the end of the hallway on the 5th floor. I gave the instructed three-knocks on the door and it opened. A good looking guy in gym shorts and no shirt, socks or shoes, opened the door. I stepped in and he closed the door behind me.

I wasn’t sure what to expect as far as the room lighting or set up would be but I was pleasantly surprised to find the heavy main curtains of the room open to allow natural sunlight in through the sheers that were drawn. To assist in further lighting the room, all the room lights were on. There was a “donation” bowl on the nearest room counter and I placed my $10 in the bowl and then the door man motioned for me to pick a spot and get comfortable. He whispered as to not interrupt or break the mode of the folks that were already there, naked and masturbating.

I looked around to find two women already engaged in a full vibrator induced masturbatory session. One woman was lying on her back with her ass flush up against the headboard of one of the two queen-sized beds, her legs spread wide and moving her vibrator quickly in and out of her juicy pussy…her eyes were closed and one hand was squeezing one of her tits, pinching her nipple while the other hand maneuvered the vibrator with ease in and out of her pussy. She was moaning and groaning in ecstasy…the other gal was propped up on pillows on the other bed, strumming her clit with the fingers of one hand while cupping one of her tits with the other hand…she was moving her hips a little as she strummed herself, watching what some of the other folks were doing. There were three guys sitting about yanking on their hard cocks…it appeared that the guys were definitely enjoying watching the gals…I liked what I was seeing…I could hardly wait to get my own clothes off and be a part of this situation.

I decided on a space over on the floor, taking advantage of several discarded pillows…I placed them next to the wall and then set my bag down and quickly got naked. I folded my clothes up for easy access when I was finished. Then I took out my lubricant and vibrator, placing a condom over my precious toy. I then placed the pillows where they would cushion me as I laid with my ass facing the wall…I then placed my feet on the wall, in a bent leg position but one that I had assumed many times at home when masturbating. I loved the sex-scented aroma of the room…it added to the excitement and energy of all around. I put some lube on the tip of my vibrator and on the little rabbit ears and turned it on, then got into position and rubbed the head of the vibrator on my already wet pussy opening…ever so slowly I slid my toy into my hot, womanly depths. I looked around and saw two of the four guys stroking their cocks and looking directly at me…I loved it, I loved knowing that there were eyes focusing on my masturbation…I began to fuck myself with my vibrator and cupped one tit in my free hand…

About this time one of the other two gals began to cum…she started moaning and groaning and then the gasping and little exclamations announcing that she had orgasmed. There was some soft clapping acknowledging the delight of some of the others…this only heightened my excitement and I started to tune out those around me and concentrate on getting myself off…I closed my eyes and basked in the knowledge that I was “performing” for those that cared to watch there in the room.

As I worked myself into the sexual frenzy of my masturbation, every now and then I would hear someone getting himself off and then I heard the other gal get herself off…there seemed to be the opening and closing of the door as folks would come/cum and go…it didn’t take me long to get near the edge of my own orgasm…I had closed my eyes in an effort to concentrate a little better but for some reason, I wanted to see if there was anyone still there watching me, so I opened my eyes and much to my thrill there were about four guys, naked and yanking on their cocks and watching me fuck myself with my vibrator. I didn’t see the other two gals, they must’ve finished themselves off, gathered themselves and left…I loved knowing that the remaining men were there not only jacking off but watching me fucking myself…well, that was all I needed and I was there, I started cumming and really got into voicing my orgasm…this caused three of the four guys to shoot off good loads, moaning and groaning, shooting cum everywhere. I LOVED IT!!!!

I laid there a moment, letting the jolts of my orgasm finish shooting throughout my body, then I got up, went to the bathroom, cleaned myself with a warm wash rag, dressed, put away my vibrator and lube and left. I felt so relaxed and satisfied. I LOVED IT!!!

I was definitely going to be attending future masturbatory sessions of the Masturbation Club.


Happy New Year!!!! Welcome 2014!!! It is a bitter cold Sunday afternoon here in Ttown. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking today as I set about tackling various projects around the house.

I went back and read some of my posts since I started posting on WordPress and I have to admit, I’ve come a long way from when I first started posting and sharing what goes on in my life. I feel that I can and have “matured” some more since the first posts. I have to laugh at how jaded I think of myself when it comes to sex and my sexual playing preferences.
I also think of how sarcastic I’ve become in other areas of my life due to the personal interactions I’ve had over the past five years. There was a time when I would eagerly share the sexual goings on and now, I don’t share a thing with anyone due to the betrayal of a few people that I trusted to be my “friends.”

The frustrating part is how these so-called friends have impacted my professional or work life. I feel as though I’m stuck in a work-place rut having to work for a crazy, passive-aggressive, insecure, high maintenance female boss at a office that is suffering mightily financially, which means I’ll never get a raise in income any time in the near future. I find myself trying to keep from panicking that I’ll be stuck right where I am at this day job. I’m trying not to give up hope. I realize that this is a life lesson, though I’m trying to figure out what life lesson it is that I’m learning right now!! lol

Sex…what sex???? Okay, so I do still see one, old submissive guy. He can’t get a full-blown erection and the semi-erection he can get is only achievable when he gives himself a penile injection. Just writing about the penile injection turns me on…yep, the sexually, sadistic side of me is still very much alive and well!!! Nevertheless, I haven’t been as interested in sessioning “least favorite submissive” a/k/a sub j, as I have been.

Health-wise, I consider myself fat and sassy. I am overweight. I am continually working on loosing weight and becoming healthier. The trick is finding what will work for me and the health issues I have. I’ll figure it out, it’s just going to take time and patience on my part.

Sex. I want and need more sex. Though I will say, I am enjoying The Masturbation Club sessions. Engaging in a group masturbation environment seems to be fulfilling my sexual expectations for the time being. I like knowing that there are people watching me masturbate and I get to enjoy watching other people self-pleasure themselves. I like to think of this situation as being very safe-sex aware!! There are also the possibilities of finding someone to engage in some one-on-one or group sex playtimes in the future. Which reminds me, maybe I need to do some posts about my past year discovery of The Masturbation Club!!

Welcome 2014!!!

Friday Night Session With Least Favorite Submissive

The scene went well. least favorite submissive showed up in his black lace bra with cloth tit inserts, no underwear/shorts as he walked up from his car to my patio. lfs also had the butt plug I had ordered him to go and buy and insert before coming to our session. He put duct tape over it to keep it inserted as I told him he would be severely punished if the plug came out.

I dressed in one of my see through cover-ups, a pair of my red sexy high-heeled sandals and one of my strap-on dildos. I waited on the patio where he couldn’t see me until he was up on the patio. He was so nervous, it was great!!! He immediately went down on his knees while yanking on his freshly shaved cock and balls until I told him to get up and follow me into my bedroom through the sliding doors on my patio.

Once inside I had lfs get down on his knees again and kiss the dildo and then my sandals and feet. I then had him stand up for his physical inspection, which I kept pushing on the butt plug through the duct tape. I then had him show me what a cock-sucking whore he is by kissing, licking and sucking on my rubber cock. When I tired of that I laid back on the bed and had him worship my feet licking and kissing my high-heeled sandals and then removing them and massages, kissing, licking and sucking on my toes. My pussy was dripping wet and he begged me to let him lick my pussy but I wanted to push him a little more before granting him the reward of licking my pussy.

I had lfs get up on my bed on all fours and then I yanked each strip of the duct tape from off of his ass crack until the butt plug was revealed. He was whimpering and whining how much it hurt which led to a good bare hand spanking. I LOVE leaving my hand print on a submissive male’s ass cheeks. Then I pulled the butt plug out and put a condom on my strap-on dildo and climbed up on the bed behind him and put the head of my rubber cock to the opening of his man pussy. He whimpered that he was scared because the dildo was much larger than he remembered and he wasn’t sure it wouldn’t hurt going in. I told him I didn’t care if it hurt that he was going to take my cock regardless…that I would rip his asshole open if that’s what I wanted to do. I took the bottle of lube and let it drip down his ass crack and rubbed it into his asshole with my finger and then began to insert the dildo into his manpussy, slowly but deliberately. He kept pushing back on it and soon the dildo was half-way into him…I reached around and started jerking on his cock while I pushed in further. He was soon begging me to fuck him like the bitch in heat that he was…he was moving in and out on the dildo and I found it quite entertaining to watch him push back on my rubber cock wanting more and more of it all the while whining about how much it hurt but he wanted Mistress to fuck him.

When I tired of fucking him I then took one of my vibrating eggs and replaced my rubber cock with the vibrating egg in his asshole. This vibrating egg is on a wire so I can easily retrieve it from his anal canal. I turned it on high while I took off my cover-up and strap-on. Then I ordered him to get up and kiss and lick my feet again and then work his way up to my pussy.

lfs licked my pussy like I love to have it licked, very feathery soft flicks of the clit and licking up and down my dripping pussy lips…whenever he would hesitate or brush his tongue wrong I would reach over and slap his semi-erect cock and then grab his balls and pull as hard as I could…I love the struggle he has to keep licking my pussy when I’m torturing his cock…

I decided to have lfs sit in one of my bedroom chairs that is just the right height when he pulls it up to my bed and pleasure my pussy with his mouth and tongue until I gave in to my orgasm and came all over his face. He said I must have given him a gallon of pussy juice when I came, he said I was just flowing with orgasmic fluids which he gladly drank until I pushed his face away when I became too sensitive after a fabulous full body orgasm. I came good and hard, my whole body convulsing in wave after wave of orgasmic bliss.

I then dismissed lfs, sending him on his way. I was so ready for bed after that fantastic stress reliever and it didn’t take me long to drift off to sleep.

How Would You Like To Come/Cum Over And…

Strip naked at the door…get down on your knees, come closer…I spread my legs so you can view my freshly shaved, smooth pussy, which is glistening from my wetness…I lean back in my red leather chair, placing my feet on the edges of the coffee table just over each of your shoulders…that’s it, lick that pussy, kiss that pussy…doesn’t that pussy taste good?

I reach to your head and run my fingers through your hair assessing just how much of your hair I can get in my fingers…that’s it Baby, flick your tongue in feathery licks upon my tiny, little sensitive clit…that’s it, every so gentle with your tongue…no, I don’t like it hard and rough…I’m way TOOOO sensitive for you to move your tough too roughly on my little clitty…

That’s it…yes, run your tongue up and down my hot, wet slit…dip your tongue in my womanly depths…that’s it…oh, yes, tongue fuck my pussy…worship that pussy!!!

Now, insert two fingers into my hot, honey hole…get the tip of your tongue back on my little clitty…now, feathery flicks while you move your fingers in a “come hither” motion…oh yeah, that’s the spot…that’s it Baby…Oh, yes, can you feel my muscles starting to contract around your fingers? Yes, yes…oh, yeah, that’s it…

And there I am, tumbling over that cliff into the waves of my ecstasy…I cum hard, pushing your head away…you struggle to try and keep your mouth on my pussy, but I won’t have it, I push you away…no more touching of the super, sensitive pussy!!!

You sit back on your heels, your cock fully erect and leaking pre-cum from the eye…I let the waves of ecstasy subside and then I order you to lay across the yoga mat I placed on the coffee table…lay on your back, I instruct…your erection standing at full attention, almost waving at me in anticipation of what I’m about to do to it…

I take the bottle of lubricant on the end table and pour a good amount on my hands. Now, I will work my magic on you…on your cock…I begin your cock massage, slowly and gently…increasing the pressure of my hands on your shaft…wringing my hands in opposite directions, then up and down…the muscles in your legs begin to contract…you’re starting to feel how fabulous my cock massage is as I increase the motion of my hands…I tell you to close your eyes and concentrate on your breathing…breath through your nose…close your mouth…concentrate on how your cock feels, how do my hands feel on your cock…oh yes, that feels really good, doesn’t it?

I continue to work on your cock…increasing my speed and then slowing down…before long your hips are beginning to move, you’re starting to move up into the stroke of my hands…I pour some more lubricant on your cock…continuously keeping at least one hand on your cock at all times…you’re starting to get into the rhythm of my hands…my strokes…I squeeze my hands a little tighter around your shaft…then release…I watch your body as I work on your cock…I cup your balls with one hand, massaging your balls, then back up to your cock…then letting go of your cock and massaging your abdomen just above your cock and balls…then down around your inner thighs, cupping your balls again and then back to your cock…I continue this motion a little longer as your hips start to rise a bit more off of the coffee table…

I spend a while longer working on your cock and you start really bucking up into my hands…you’re getting closer to your own orgasm…your breathing becomes more jagged, your trying to hold back but I keep on taking you farther…you’re getting close to the point of no return…

You gasp that you’re getting close…I laugh…and move my hands faster in a wringing motion around the shaft and then a quick up and down motion…faster, faster…you can’t control your hips, you’re doing your best to fuck my hands…and suddenly, you scream and your cock begins shooting the cum load…I aim your cock at your chest so you get a good covering of your jism…I squeeze hard on your shaft, making sure I get every last drop from your balls…you’re hollering and screaming, all caught up in your orgasm. I watch your spasming cock as the last drops ooze out of the eye of your cock before I let it go…

I let you lay there a minute, then I go and get a warm wash cloth, I clean you up and then show you to the bathroom…
“Clean yourself up, then you may leave,” I tell you. You do as you’re instructed…you quickly dress and stop at the door…
“Yes?” I ask.
“Thank you, Mistress,” as you head out the door.

Impure Thoughts…

I keep having thoughts of bending a guy over some sort of device that allows his cock and balls to hang free but gives me complete and total access to his asshole…sometimes the hands and feet are securely bound so there is no interference and I am free to do as I want…(is there any other way?????  =))!)!!!

This scene takes on various twists and turns in that sometimes I am able to adjust the height so I can fuck this “helpless” man with my strap-on dildo…I take my time playing with his cock and balls, which again, the man is unable to do anything but be the object of my attention and torture…

I do take great pleasure in taking my time, lubing up the man’s asshole…inserting a surgical-gloved finger into his tight, spasmsing hole…inserting first one finger, then two…always using more and more lubricant…then three fingers…spreading him wider, allowing his muscles to contract and relax…

I instruct my “victim” to breathe…then squeeze my fingers as hard as he can, then relax…working yet another finger (four fingers, now)…how far should I go???? Shall I see if I can insert my whole had?  A little fisting???  WOW!!!!

Okay, so, sometimes I get my whole hand into the guy’s manpussy…sometimes I stop at a couple of fingers and switch to using my various sizes of butt plus and dildos…just depends on the mood I’m in and how far I want this “taking” to go…

I am fascinated how one man can remain erect during this conversion process and some couldn’t remain hard if his life depended on it!!!!

Yes, I’m having impure thoughts of late…

Monday, Monday…

A cool front has blown through making the temps so much more bearable!!! There’s even some high clouds that are keeping the sun from raising the temps back into the triple digits…this is the kind of summer I could really enjoy!!!

I can’t get over how late I’m sleeping in the mornings…I’m not staying up any later than I used to when I was working…but, I guess not having to get up and be somewhere at any specific time has got me lulled into a more relaxed state in my slumber. I do wake up at 5:30 a.m. only for a bathroom break and then right back into the bed…I think I might actually be slowing down and maybe…just maybe, adjusting to relaxing????? Surely not!!!

I heard from the attorney I interviewed with on Friday. He’s keeping me “updated” on where “we’re” at on the job issue…honestly, I have VERY mixed emotions about this job…not that he’s made me an offer but the voicemail reflected a genuine interest on his part…can I afford to turn this job down and follow the direction I want to go??? Will I ever be able to shuck off the financial need to go the for sure route and not take the chance that I might really find myself going in the other direction…these are the kind of struggles I’m dealing with on this unemployment vacation.

I’m getting more and more done around the house…picking at things, sorting through all manners of things, throwing things away…I am hoping that I’ll get myself more organized on the important papers front…I’ve got to learn to let go of things…and I am, slowly but surely.

I’ve got to get to the doctor’s office sometime today and have the doctor sign off on the prescription form of my arthritis medicine…then I’ll be able to get that sent off to see if I’m eligible for a year’s worth of medication…or until I have health insurance that will pay for my medication.

Another leisurely Monday…

Sunday Reflections (8-15-2010)

It’s been a couple of weeks since I posted…I just haven’t felt like sharing what’s going on with me, my life…I haven’t felt like much of anything lately.  I call it one of the cycles of where I find myself in my current unemployment status.

I’ve been “officially” unemployed now for 2-weeks, I’m entering my 3rd week.  I’ve applied for unemployment benefits, that’s all still “in” the works.  I did have to call-in and talk to an actual real person as the online system wouldn’t accept my first reporting.  I think it’s all straightened out and everything goes through as I was told it would, I should receive my first benefit “debit” card this week…I do know that if I needed money right now, I would be up shit creek without a paddle…

The “vacation pay” check I was supposed to receive this past Friday did not arrive.  It seems the new chief financial guy at the firm messed that up, so it will be 8-20-2010 before a check for my vacation pay will be issued.  Good thing I cashed my 401k out and am using that money to pay bills and get by…but that will only last another couple of months…I’m concerned but not overly so…surely, I will figure out what to do with myself and get back into some sort of grid/schedule.

I’ve enjoyed being able to session during the work week day…though I’ve only had two clients take advantage of the current situation.  The economy really sucks right now and folks have cut way back on their “entertainment” budget!!!

I did make myself go to a movie and dinner with a friend, Friday night…and then met a friend and her daughter for lunch yesterday.  I still don’t feel very social but I’m getting there…I’m still trying to work through my personal issues with how I was forced to leave my last employ.

I had another job interview this past Friday…a small 10-lawyer firm, nice folks, very quiet office…I can’t really see myself working there but I think I made a good impression and will see if I’m offered a position come Monday or Tuesday of this week.  I don’t know if I will take the job…I’m really wanting to look into going in an entirely different direction than the legal profession.  Crazy as it may sound, I just don’t feel I belong in an office environment right now.  I want to venture forth and explore/experience something else…so, I’m looking into that other possibility.

I’ve yet to finish my bedroom painting/texturing pr0ject.  I just can’t get motivated to finish up the last corner…I need to deep clean the carpet in my living room…it’s just too gross and there doesn’t seem to be a possibility of redoing that floor any time soon.

I’m starting to relax a bit, though I thoroughly miss having a set “schedule” on a work week daily basis.  I want to be motivated but just can’t quite get there…it won’t last long, it never does but while I’m in the middle of this funk, I can barely function…I have so many things I want to do, want to start and get done but I just haven’t tapped into the get-up-and-go of it.

I’ll be fine, I always pull through…this won’t be any different, just figuring out what I want to be when I grow up is the problem.

I’ve been diligent in my pursuit of finding funding/benefits for various things in my life.  My arthritis medication has been the biggest concern I have had having lost my health insurance coverage.  The health insurance covered my arthritis medication injections.  If I had to pay for the injections they would cost approximately $400 each…on my insurance, coupled with the drug company benefits, I only had to pay $20 a month.  Now, I have nothing.  So, I printed off the 5-pages of forms to fill out and talked to one of the representatives at the Foundation that offers programs to assist or completely pay for the drugs and will get that off tomorrow (Monday) to see if I qualify.  I didn’t do my injection this past week in hopes of prolonging the doses I currently have, which are three doses…I’m hoping I can manage without too much pain until I get word if I’ve been approved.  Help is out there, you just have to jump through all of the hoops, fill out the forms, be diligent in doing what has to be done…it is rather daunting to say the least.

I’m hanging in here…what choice do I have?  I’ll be fine, just working through it all and trying to keep my head above water!!! We’re having a brief break in the excruciating heat of this August…partly cloudy and occasion rain today…temps are down around 80 degrees and only expected to get up in the 90s today instead of triple digits.

Have a good week ahead!!!

Wicked Wednesday…

Wicked, as in wickedly hot temperature wise!!! Another scorching day ahead…however, it’s nice and cool inside of my house.

I had a fabulous session last night. I disciplined the “naughty” boy by spanking his bottom, making his play with himself while I watched…then bending him over and fucking him in the ass like the little slut that he desired to be.

I made him lick my pussy like I like it licked…when he would get too rough I would swat his hard, bobbing cock with my hand instructing him to approach his licking with a more feathery tongue…some have to be told repeatedly of their transgression of licking my clit too hard.

I had a great orgasm…the release it provided was fantastic…and just as I was in the throes of the electric currents of this orgasm, the naughty boy asked if he could suck my big toe…well, that sent me into more waves of the orgasm…It was amazing how electric it was having him suck my toe while I enjoyed wave after wave of pleasure!!!

I laid there until the waves subsided and then got right to playing with his hard cock…I love taking a hard piece of cock-meat and playing with it until there is no turning back…though I do seem to know exactly when to stop, when to ease up and back off…nothing like taking the naughty boy there over and over again until I decide it is time for him to give up his load…and give up his load he did!!!!

A pleasing session…which only makes me crave more…and more I will get when I turn to session my dear subbie on Thursday morning!!!

As for Wicked Wednesday…I’m determined to finish putting the top coat on my textured walls…finishing up what texturing I have left to do and letting it set before putting the top coat on it…then putting everything back in its place…it already looks amazingly different…so soothing and relaxing.

Time for another cup of coffee and tackle the day!! Stay cool and safe in this heat!!!