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Reflections of 2011…

Every now and then I take a look at my previous posts.  2011 has been a rather ugly year for me with regard to my health.  I started having a terrible pain in my right lower abdomen and after trying to hold out and see if the pain would go away on its own, I ended up having part of my colon removed due to a rupture in the colon wall due to Crohn’s disease.

I guess what makes me stop and really realize how lucky I am is the fact that I had my first “attack” around March 3rd of 2011 and didn’t have surgery until May 10th of 2011.  I am one stubborn gal!!!

Since my surgery in May, I’ve been working to gain back my strength and stamina…doing my best to try and rid myself of excess weight, get my body back into some kind of physical fitness shape…the past couple of weeks have found me sleeping in instead of getting up and doing my early morning workouts that I started back around August 16th…and continued religiously until two weeks ago.  The break has been nice but I’m feeling fat and sluggy…it’s time to get back to my exercise and walking routines!!!

I have to laugh at myself because it seems as though I start the “reflection” mode the week between Christmas and New Year’s…glad I’m holding to one of my yearly habits!!!

 

The Day After Christmas 2011…

I just realized I haven’t posted anything since back in June when I went back to work after having part of my colon removed.

I have to admit, having major surgery, then going through the recovery process, being without a pay check for 6-weeks and gradually finding my way back to a somewhat “normal” life has been interesting.

I became a grandmother for a second time.  The newest addition to our extended family was a son born to my oldest son and his wife.  The little guy is the remake or “mini” me of my son.  He looks just like my son did when he was a baby.  I am so proud of my son, his wife and my little grandson…a perfect little family.

I really thought I had found a “happy” place in my current employment…that was until the week before last when the drunken, derelict attorney fired his secretary.  Life at the office is no longer where I want to be…the problem is, I can’t seem to find another work home.   I’ve continued to apply for jobs and go on interviews…no one seems to want someone like me…I have a feeling it has to do with my salary requirement.

Nevertheless, things have not been all rosey and happy at the office this month of December…my boss has been less enchanted with me and I really thought I would get fired when I made an error on the e-filing of an order in a case…I filed the short version of the order, which the judge entered instead of the detailed, number specific order that my attorney wanted.  The opposing counsel started rumbling about not agreeing to a detailed order but rather liking the simple, unspecific order…so, my attorney was livid with me…it was the first time since my surgery that I got to experience what my body does when I’m under pressure…OMG, it was ugly.  I haven’t felt gut pain like that since before the surgery!!!  I really worked myself into a frenzied state and had pretty much convinced myself I would be out looking for another job on Monday morning.  Well, I got back from lunch and it had all worked out…the judge entered the correct order and all was right with my world again.  Let’s just say I’m getting too old to do such stupid things!!!

There’s a whole slew of things that have been going on in my life since I last wrote…I’ve got a new housemate living with me and my significant other until the guy figures out what he wants to do with his life…this is with regard to his 28-year marriage.  He’s been living here since July.

I’ve enjoyed a couple of new special friends (clients) but they seem to have fallen off of realizing their submission the past month…I’m waiting patiently to see if any or all of them return.

I usually am all about heading over to my favorite department store on the day after Christmas, but you know, the sales have changed and they simply aren’t offering enough off of the clothing that I would be interested in buying.  Not that I need anything new to wear…I would enjoy getting a pair of Ugg boots, but I’m simply not going to pay full retail price…mark them down and I’ll get a pair…I did order a couple of pairs of Lauren by Ralph Lauren boots from my attorney, sugar daddy, but that’s about it as far as great buys this Christmas season.

I did get a gift card for a sizeable amount from my least-favorite-submissive for Christmas but I’m waiting until the mark-downs are decent before using it.

That’s a brief run-down on where I’m at in my life…I’m going to try and reflect a bit more on this past year in the days ahead as I build up to 2012.

Monday…

Monday, the beginning of the work week…another Monday off for me during my convalescing…I anticipate going back to my job from Hell next Tuesday.  I will discuss this with my surgeon tomorrow (Tuesday) at my follow-up appointment, post-hospital.

I’m tired of daytime TV…though I’ll be watching the last 3 shows of Oprah Winfrey.  I am tired of daytime TV but there are times when all I feel like doing is laying in my bed and watching TV or half-way watching, more times dozing…as I’ve said before, I’m not much of a nap taker, especially during the day…rest is an essential element to recovery from a major surgery.

Today is my youngest brother’s birthday.  He turned 42 years-old today.  My birthday is this Wednesday, I’ll be 53 years old.  I remember when my brother was born…I was thrilled to be getting a “baby” for my birthday!  I was 9 years old and a new baby was just so exciting.

I got all my errands done yesterday.  I was exhausted to say the least but thankful my dear friend agreed to shuttle me to all the destinations I had planned on my agenda.

Today, I will get out on the patio and take the petunias I bought and create a tower of cascading blooms and vines around my antique plant stand.  I’m hoping to place it on my front porch to give it a little more color.  I may just leave it on my patio and enjoy my creation out there…

More storms are predicted for the area.  Tornado season is in full swing…the ferocity of the tornadoes this year is unbelievable.  My thoughts and prayers go out to those folks that have suffered from these fierce storms.

Time for another cup of coffee and decide which project to attack before I have to take my first rest.  Have a good Monday.

Sunday Reflections 5-22-2011

I have a lot of time to reflect…as well as set little goals to accomplish during my convalescing. This isn’t an easy situation for someone like me…I’ve been told I’m a Type A personality with severe OCD…but I have learned from this health experience.

I’ve found myself thinking of how in the world I got to this point with my health. In all honesty, I had no idea I would be subject to Crohn’s without more of a warning from my body. In other words, the event that happened on or around 3/2/2011 was the first indication I had that something had gone seriously awry with my body. Sure the hereditary indicators are always there and I’m very much aware now that this disease runs in families…I definitely have those markers but I don’t fit the “prototype”…in other words, I’m way older than most folks when they experience their first bout with Crohns.

I’m tired of the surgical, steel staples in my belly. They are uncomfortable and tight at times. I’m confident that the surgeon will be removing them on Tuesday when I go for my first follow-up visit post-hospital stay. That will be an early birthday treat. I’ve already started researching what creams and such I should use to further facilitate the healing process of my major belly scar…It isn’t that I think I’m going to be able to get rid of the scar, just reduce the angry appearance that it current has…it is what it is, part of the road map of where I’ve been in my health life…take it or leave it, that’s just the way it is!!!

I will also talk to the surgeon about I should start back to work and if I should do half-days and see how it goes or just jump in and do full work days. Right now I’m not getting paid for every work week day I’m not in the office…thus, I’m thinking if the doctor will agree, I will start back to work the Tuesday after Memorial Day Monday for half-days that week and then full days the following week…that should get a pay check generated starting the first week in June. I have a feeling it’s going to be rough and exhausting for the first couple of weeks, but if I continue to progress as well as I have been, it should work out just fine.

I’m tickled that I finally have all my house plants out on my patio. Now I can vacuum where they have resided for the winter and straighten up my living room and bedroom. I am amused at how big the plants have become over the winter months and wonder how they will fit back into the house when the weather begins to turn cold later this year, in the Fall/Winter.

I’ve got several goals I want to accomplish today. I want to begin a walking program. Today’s goal is to walk around my block. Right now, that seems like a Hell of a long way…I’ve got to start the rebuilding process. My goal is to walk a little bit each day…that way, I can start back to walking group training as we head into Fall.

I want to go and get some more petunias to plant and display in one of my antique rod iron plant stands. I am thinking Home Depot will be the place to find the trailing petunias and little vines I’m wanting to plant.

I need to go by Sam’s and get a few things to get through this next week and then the grocery store for the items I don’t get at Sam’s. I want to run into the makeup store that is next door to the grocery store and see if the new OPI nail polish is in…a little birthday treat to myself.

This is a big list of “to-dos” today. I think I’m up to making the whole line of stops…I can always come home if I get too tired at any point of the journey. This will make for a full day, no doubt!!

In the week ahead, my birthday is Wednesday, May 25th. I’m looking forward to joining friends for lunch that day and then family/friends that evening. I’m trying to decide if I want to buy myself a chocolate birthday cake or make it. I’ve got to remember to pick up some vanilla ice cream to go with it…

My OKC Thunder fell short last night in their quest to win another game in the Western Finals…they are young and erratic…maybe that’s why I like to watch them, though the mistakes they make are somewhat painful at times and definitely leave them lacking point-wise. There’s a game tomorrow night (Monday) and then back to Dallas for the Wednesday night game.

That’s about it for my week in reflection and projection for the week ahead. Have a great week ahead!!!!

Saturday

This morning dawned cool and breezy…nothing like sitting out on my patio and sipping my morning coffee.  I’m still trying to adjust to convalescing…sitting around resting and relaxing is such a foreign concept to me.

I would love to attend the going away party for my youngest son tonight, but I’m still not quite able to socialize, much less ride in the car for an hour to and then an hour back.  I’m also not ready to be around folks smoking and drinking themselves into oblivion, namely my ex-hubby, so I declined to join the festivities and told my youngest son to come by if he has a chance before he heads out to basic training for the next 3 or 4 months.    My son is growing into quite the young man.  I am very proud of all three of my children.   It amazing me  how well they have grown into thriving, contributing adults.

Game 3 of the Western NBA Play-0ffs is tonight.  I’ve turned into quite an OKC Thunder fan during these play-off series.  I’ve never really been a big fan of the pro-basketball leagues, but after attending an OKC Thunder game back in December with my dear OKC friends, I was hooked.

I think too, watching the OKC Thunder through the play-offs has been a good therapy for me through my health ordeal these past couple of months.  Tonight, the Thunder returns to OKC for Game 3 with the Dallas Mavericks…I’ll be cheering the Thunder on, hoping they’re able to get their game plan in gear and win again tonight!!!

Time for another cup of coffee…have a great Saturday and a fabulous weekend!!!

Friday!!!!

I’ve made it to another Friday!!! This convalescing is a little more difficult than I imagined it would be…though I am loving not having to get up and go to a job I absolutely despise!!!

I got a few more plants re-potted and placed on my patio, which thrills me.  I love my patio and think of it as my oasis in the middle of a crazy life and time.

This will be one of the first years in 10-years that I haven’t had a Naughty, Nasty Birthday Party planned for my birthday, which is next week.  May 25th to be exact.  Looking back, I’ve had some pretty incredible naughty, nasty birthday parties…WOW, did I make up for lost time or what????? lol!!!!!  Maybe next year…there’s always next year, right????  This year is all about being thankful to have made it to another birthday, as well as healing.

My birthday usually falls right on Memorial Day weekend…this year, it’s in the middle of the work week so that really works out…I’ll still be on medical leave from the “real” job so really doesn’t matter what day or weekend my birthday falls.  This year I’m thinking a silly, romantic movie and a nice birthday dinner…probably not the usual fare of lobster.  For some reason, really rich, incredible food doesn’t sound all that inviting.  However, there will be chocolate birthday cake!!!  I’ve already made up my mind, chocolate cake and vanilla icecream…yummy!!!!

I’m hoping to get the surgical, steel staples holding my belly together out next week.  I have a follow-up appointment to see my surgeon on Tuesday, the day before my birthday…hopefully, everything is healing the way it is supposed to heal.  I will also discuss with him when I can return to work, if only for half-days…I’ve got to get back to work.  Every work day that I’m not at the office, I’m not getting paid…OUCH financially!!!!

I’m hanging in here…getting around a bit easier each day, though still finding myself okay with crawling into bed and just laying there and watching TV.  Though daytime TV is getting old…

Yes, I’ve made it to another Friday!!!

Where oh Where Has Liza Been – No. 2 ???? A Sunday Reflections of Sorts 5-15-2011

I’ve been trying to figure out how to get back here to post to let everyone know I’m still alive, not kicking as high, at least not yet!!! This past Tuesday I gave up/in to the blasted right side pain and headed to the ER. The pain level got to an 8, I was done. I called my surgeon to let him know so we could get things in motion to resolve this pain issue… Long story short, I had surgery on Wednesday morning to remove a supposed decomposing appendix…I ended up having one third of my colon removed due to Crohn’s Disease having taken over, perforated, abscessed and engulfing my perfectly normal appendix. I have a crazy 10″ incision held together by about 35 surgical staples. The surgeon is confident tar he got it all. Apparently, he wasn’t sure what he would find, he mentioned cancer, diverticulitis but the pathology came back Crohn’s Disease. I wasn’t too surprised…Crohn’s runs in my family with my youngest brother having had two feet of his intestine removed ten years ago…my sister was diagnosed with Crohn’s last year and put on medication to clear up an irritated patch in her upper colon…and me, well, my primary doctor shared with me her concern that the problems I was having where not my appendix but a bad flair of Crohn’s in the spot noted on my colonoscopy from two years ago that that particular gastro-internal doctor chalked up to chemical irritation rather than further testing to be sure it wasn’t Crohn’s, especially since we had thoroughly discussed all my hereditary factors…interesting, huh??? So, I’m recovering well. I’m a model patient, very pro-active in my care. I have great nurses, great nurses aids, even housekeeping likes me though I keep them on their toes. Today is my first day on “real” or solid foods. I’m looking forward to the change of pace. Estimated discharge is mid-week with 4 to 6 weeks at home before returning to work. The surgeon said he went ahead and removed my appendix, which made sense since it was embedded in the part of my colon he removed!! What a week!!! Believe it or not, I’m resting and relaxing and not thinking about how to make ends meet…it will all work out , just taking it one day at a time.