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Sunday Reflections 1.12.2014

This past week was fantastic!!! My oldest son and his wife, my daughter-in-law gave birth to my 3rd grandchild, a little girl, on Wednesday, January 8, 2014. The little girl weighed in at 8 lbs., 20 inches long, full head of dark hair, all ten toes and ten fingers. The little girl is perfect in everyway. I was summoned to assist with the care of their 2-year-old son, my first and only grandson to-date. I left my day job an hour early, ran by the house and gathered up a few things, e-mailed several people to help me out and do the informational presentation I was due to give Wednesday evening at the part-time job, then I headed out of Ttown to the little town 50-miles away where Project Birth was taking place.

The little girl was born at 8:27 p.m. on Wednesday evening. I stayed two days, Thursday and Friday to help out until everyone came home. Then my youngest son and his fiancé brought me back to Ttown on Friday evening.

I didn’t realize how tired I was until I crawled into my bed late Friday night. I’ve been playing catch up on my rest and sleep ever since. I’m trying to gear myself up to head back to the day job grind tomorrow (Monday) morning!!! I’m just not looking forward to going back to the office, to my current boss. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll get up and go to work in the morning, I just am not looking forward to going. I have been diligently searching for a new job, but have not found one, yet.

Tomorrow kicks off the first of my part-time job’s Spring 2014 sessions. I will be walking Monday through Thursday evenings this week and on Saturday morning. I signed up for another month of early morning Spin classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays and am thinking about signing up for the Urban Fit class that happens at 5:30 a.m. Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I am thinking all that would easily qualify for sufficient cross-training from my walking. I wonder if I really continue to watch my diet if I would start to see some weight loss and physical fitness improvement over the next 12-weeks…I know I’m going to have to kick it into a higher gear than I have been doing in order to make something happen.

I got an e-mail from a dear friend that I enjoyed on a sexual level a few years ago. He moved from Tulsa to Enid, Oklahoma then on to Denver, Colorado. We’ve stayed in touch via e-mail. I couldn’t help but smile when I read his e-mail. He’s doing fine, now semi-retired and working when he wants as a consultant. He’s met a gal that is giving him quite a run in the sex department. I couldn’t help but wonder if this friend is using some penile enhancement drugs for his erectile dysfunction. I know he was not able to get and keep and erection the few times we played, so when he mentioned that this gal sexually insatiable, I wondered exactly how that interprets with what I experienced with him…or rather didn’t experience with him. Nevertheless, he seems happy and enjoying himself. Good for him and good for the gal he’s seeing.

Other than receiving an e-mail from my friend in Denver, there’s nothing going on with regards to sex. I masturbate myself to orgasm and wash up my toy and get on with whatever I am doing around the house. I’ve given up on finding a sexually viable man on the adult sex site I’m a member of, the quality of men are just so pathetic.

Time to finish preparing for my upcoming work week and session kick-off with my walking workouts!!! Have a great week ahead!!!

An Unusual Request

I had an unusual request made of me at the last Masturbation Club session I attended. I had one of the men that is what I consider a “regular” at the noon sessions of the Masturbation Club ask me if he could lick my pussy juices off of my vibrator after I finished or orgasmed. The man made this request by note, which was handed to me by the guy stationed at the door of the hotel room where our session was happening. We “sign in” and place our donation just inside of the door of the room, the guy handed me the note. I read it and looked around the room. The man that submitted the request waved at me from across the room. I stood there and thought a minute and decided, why not? I nodded yes to him and then found where I wanted to settle in for my masturbatory indulgence.

I have to admit, I was a bit more turned on knowing that I would be handing over my vibrator to this guy to lick and suck my pussy juices when I was done…I think my pussy got a bit more juicy!!!! I know it turned me on a bit more to know that this guy was watching me and patiently waiting for me to orgasm before he would come over and I would hand him my pussy juice covered vibrator. The man was already naked and indulging in some yanking of his own hard cock. I hoped he enjoyed my masturbatory show…I know I was enjoying the whole scenario. I’m calling it an added incentive for this particular session.

It didn’t take me long to get myself into position and get myself off. I laid there a moment as I withdraw my vibrator which was all covered with my juices. The man took his cue and made his way over to where I was laying. I held up the vibrator to him and then I sat up. He sat down on the floor next to me and began to admire the juice-covered vibrator. He took his time, savoring the odiferous qualities, then ever so slowly he ran his tongue up and down the shaft of my vibrator. I was mesmerized by his deliberate licking and then, the piece de resistance, he then took the vibrator into his mouth just like he was sucking a cock!! I felt my pussy tingle with excitement…this was much hotter than I had anticipated. Nothing turns me on more than a man suck another man’s cock…the next best turn on, watching a man suck a cock-like vibrator like it was a real cock. Holy Crap, this was incredibly HOT!!!!!

This man took that vibrator and savored it like it was a real cock…I was so turned on, I began fingering my pussy which was already dripping again with excitement. It didn’t take me long to start moaning and groaning by my own hand…which only spurred the man on with his licking and sucking of my vibrator. I didn’t realize it but the rest of the room was pretty much mesmerized by the show this man and I were providing. I gasped as I orgasmed…my fingers dripping with my cum…the man then set the vibrator aside and took the wrist of the hand I had used for this impromptu masturbation. He looked at me and asked, may I? I nodded yes and he ever so slowly, licked my fingers clean of my pussy juices…then sucked each finger ever so gently, making sure he hadn’t missed a drop of my tastiness.

Time was getting away from me…I was feeling those tingles and twinges beginning again. I thanked him for his tongue bath, then took my leave, gathering up my vibrator and bag, heading to the bathroom to do some cleaning, dressing and head out.

What can I say, that was one of the most unusual requests I’ve had in a while…yet, it was one of the most rewarding masturbatory sessions I’ve enjoyed since joining the Masturbation Club.

The Masturbation Club

I mentioned in my 2014 post about having found a way to indulge in what I refer to as the best safe sex activity, masturbation! I discovered The Masturbation Club a little over two years ago and have to admit, I LOVE IT!!! For the time being, The Masturbation Club provides the “zing” that I want and need in my sex life without having to engage in an interpersonal sexual relationship.
Here is how my first Masturbation Club experience went:

The Masturbation Club
I was looking forward to my first Masturbation Club experience. The “rules of engagement” were simple enough. The group was sent an e-mail as to the date, time and location of the meeting. The donation to help out with the cost of the room at a decent hotel was a set $10 to be put in the bowl near the door of the room upon arriving.

The room or accommodations were dictated by how many folks RSVP’ed for an upcoming session. This session was to be during a noon hour. A “nooner” masturbation session sounded perfect for me. I liked the thought of going somewhere to meet some folks, getting naked and getting myself off while others watched me and I watched others. Very simple, very erotic!!!

I liked the idea that the location of my first session was near my downtown office. This session was set for a “nooner” session which spanned from 11:30 a.m. to 2:00 p.m. Come/cum and go…my lunch hour was 12:30 p.m. to 1:30 p.m. so I liked the idea that I would be arriving and masturbating about mid-way during the set time period.

I packed a little “masturbation workout” bag, which included my favorite vibrator, condoms for quick clean up, lubricant and at the last minute, I decided to include my clit cream. I would put the clit cream on my clit before leaving my office that way I would be primed and ready to go when I arrived at the masturbatory club session.

I have to admit, I was really excited about my first club session. The morning at the office was busy and the time really flew by. I made a trip to the women’s restroom about 15-minutes before I left for lunch. I slipped the clit cream in my pocket and headed down to the basement restroom. No one was around, not that it would have mattered, but I liked knowing that I was all alone and could dab the clit cream on my tiny little clitty, use the restroom and wait for the tingle to warm up my pussy…oh, what a delight to have that warmth growing between my legs as I gathered my purse and headed out for “lunch.”

I found a perfect parking place and plugged the meter for an hour and a half. I knew I wouldn’t necessarily be there for that long but wanted to be sure I had plenty of meter time without getting a parking ticket. I made my way to the elevator with my little workout bag and then up to the room number that was sent via text message a couple of hours earlier.

The room was at the end of the hallway on the 5th floor. I gave the instructed three-knocks on the door and it opened. A good looking guy in gym shorts and no shirt, socks or shoes, opened the door. I stepped in and he closed the door behind me.

I wasn’t sure what to expect as far as the room lighting or set up would be but I was pleasantly surprised to find the heavy main curtains of the room open to allow natural sunlight in through the sheers that were drawn. To assist in further lighting the room, all the room lights were on. There was a “donation” bowl on the nearest room counter and I placed my $10 in the bowl and then the door man motioned for me to pick a spot and get comfortable. He whispered as to not interrupt or break the mode of the folks that were already there, naked and masturbating.

I looked around to find two women already engaged in a full vibrator induced masturbatory session. One woman was lying on her back with her ass flush up against the headboard of one of the two queen-sized beds, her legs spread wide and moving her vibrator quickly in and out of her juicy pussy…her eyes were closed and one hand was squeezing one of her tits, pinching her nipple while the other hand maneuvered the vibrator with ease in and out of her pussy. She was moaning and groaning in ecstasy…the other gal was propped up on pillows on the other bed, strumming her clit with the fingers of one hand while cupping one of her tits with the other hand…she was moving her hips a little as she strummed herself, watching what some of the other folks were doing. There were three guys sitting about yanking on their hard cocks…it appeared that the guys were definitely enjoying watching the gals…I liked what I was seeing…I could hardly wait to get my own clothes off and be a part of this situation.

I decided on a space over on the floor, taking advantage of several discarded pillows…I placed them next to the wall and then set my bag down and quickly got naked. I folded my clothes up for easy access when I was finished. Then I took out my lubricant and vibrator, placing a condom over my precious toy. I then placed the pillows where they would cushion me as I laid with my ass facing the wall…I then placed my feet on the wall, in a bent leg position but one that I had assumed many times at home when masturbating. I loved the sex-scented aroma of the room…it added to the excitement and energy of all around. I put some lube on the tip of my vibrator and on the little rabbit ears and turned it on, then got into position and rubbed the head of the vibrator on my already wet pussy opening…ever so slowly I slid my toy into my hot, womanly depths. I looked around and saw two of the four guys stroking their cocks and looking directly at me…I loved it, I loved knowing that there were eyes focusing on my masturbation…I began to fuck myself with my vibrator and cupped one tit in my free hand…

About this time one of the other two gals began to cum…she started moaning and groaning and then the gasping and little exclamations announcing that she had orgasmed. There was some soft clapping acknowledging the delight of some of the others…this only heightened my excitement and I started to tune out those around me and concentrate on getting myself off…I closed my eyes and basked in the knowledge that I was “performing” for those that cared to watch there in the room.

As I worked myself into the sexual frenzy of my masturbation, every now and then I would hear someone getting himself off and then I heard the other gal get herself off…there seemed to be the opening and closing of the door as folks would come/cum and go…it didn’t take me long to get near the edge of my own orgasm…I had closed my eyes in an effort to concentrate a little better but for some reason, I wanted to see if there was anyone still there watching me, so I opened my eyes and much to my thrill there were about four guys, naked and yanking on their cocks and watching me fuck myself with my vibrator. I didn’t see the other two gals, they must’ve finished themselves off, gathered themselves and left…I loved knowing that the remaining men were there not only jacking off but watching me fucking myself…well, that was all I needed and I was there, I started cumming and really got into voicing my orgasm…this caused three of the four guys to shoot off good loads, moaning and groaning, shooting cum everywhere. I LOVED IT!!!!

I laid there a moment, letting the jolts of my orgasm finish shooting throughout my body, then I got up, went to the bathroom, cleaned myself with a warm wash rag, dressed, put away my vibrator and lube and left. I felt so relaxed and satisfied. I LOVED IT!!!

I was definitely going to be attending future masturbatory sessions of the Masturbation Club.

2014

Happy New Year!!!! Welcome 2014!!! It is a bitter cold Sunday afternoon here in Ttown. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking today as I set about tackling various projects around the house.

I went back and read some of my posts since I started posting on WordPress and I have to admit, I’ve come a long way from when I first started posting and sharing what goes on in my life. I feel that I can and have “matured” some more since the first posts. I have to laugh at how jaded I think of myself when it comes to sex and my sexual playing preferences.
I also think of how sarcastic I’ve become in other areas of my life due to the personal interactions I’ve had over the past five years. There was a time when I would eagerly share the sexual goings on and now, I don’t share a thing with anyone due to the betrayal of a few people that I trusted to be my “friends.”

The frustrating part is how these so-called friends have impacted my professional or work life. I feel as though I’m stuck in a work-place rut having to work for a crazy, passive-aggressive, insecure, high maintenance female boss at a office that is suffering mightily financially, which means I’ll never get a raise in income any time in the near future. I find myself trying to keep from panicking that I’ll be stuck right where I am at this day job. I’m trying not to give up hope. I realize that this is a life lesson, though I’m trying to figure out what life lesson it is that I’m learning right now!! lol

Sex…what sex???? Okay, so I do still see one, old submissive guy. He can’t get a full-blown erection and the semi-erection he can get is only achievable when he gives himself a penile injection. Just writing about the penile injection turns me on…yep, the sexually, sadistic side of me is still very much alive and well!!! Nevertheless, I haven’t been as interested in sessioning “least favorite submissive” a/k/a sub j, as I have been.

Health-wise, I consider myself fat and sassy. I am overweight. I am continually working on loosing weight and becoming healthier. The trick is finding what will work for me and the health issues I have. I’ll figure it out, it’s just going to take time and patience on my part.

Sex. I want and need more sex. Though I will say, I am enjoying The Masturbation Club sessions. Engaging in a group masturbation environment seems to be fulfilling my sexual expectations for the time being. I like knowing that there are people watching me masturbate and I get to enjoy watching other people self-pleasure themselves. I like to think of this situation as being very safe-sex aware!! There are also the possibilities of finding someone to engage in some one-on-one or group sex playtimes in the future. Which reminds me, maybe I need to do some posts about my past year discovery of The Masturbation Club!!

Welcome 2014!!!

What Have I Been Up To Sexually???????

My sex life as The Mature Sex Goddess has been somewhat sporadic over the past 7 months.  I had high hopes that things would improve sexually when I let my male friend move-in while he sorted out his life and divorced his wife of 28-years…needless to say, my housemate turned out to be a HUGE sexual disappointment…thus, after two attempts to “play” sexually with my housemate, I gave up.  I don’t do well when a man decides his agenda is what he prefers over MY sexual agenda!!!

So, my sex life as the Mature Sex Goddess has been enjoyed with an occasional visit from one of my special friends, which is one about every six or eight weeks…or pleasuring and pleasing myself with my various BOBs (battery operated boyfriends…i.e.vibrators)!

I did happen onto a local area group that gets together once every two or three weeks and sometimes just once a month, for a group masturbation session…i.e. The Masturbation Club.  A couple of guys here in the Tulsa area got together and came up with the overall format of The Masturbation Club and I have been lucky enough to join these two guys in providing a safe and sane masturbation group get together.

I have poo-pooed the concept of getting together with other people to get naked and simply masturbate ourselves while others watched and did the same…but for some reason over the past year, I’ve reached a point in my personal sex life where I don’t necessarily want someone getting naked and playing with me, touching me and such…but the idea of getting naked and “performing” a self-sex act was exactly what I want!!!

Here’s how my first time masturbation club experience went…I will tell you, I’ve been enjoying attending the masturbation sessions for the past six months and joined the organizers in continuing to keep these “meetings” the best they could possibly be…this is what I have been up to sexually, lately…and of course, much more…but for now, enjoy my first Masturbation Club experience!!!

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I was looking forward to my first Masturbation Club experience.  The “rules of engagement” were simple enough.  Those wishing to participate were sent an e-mail as to the date, time and location of the meeting.  The donation to help out with the cost of the room at a decent hotel was a set $10 to be put in the bowl near the door of the room upon arriving (cash only!).

The room or accommodations were dictated by how many folks RSVP’ed for an upcoming session.  This session was to be during a noon hour.  A “nooner” masturbation session sounded perfect for me.  I liked the thought of going somewhere to meet some folks, getting naked and getting myself off while others watched me and I watched others.  Very simple, very erotic!!!

I liked the idea that the location of my first session was near my downtown office.  This session was set for a “nooner” session which spanned from 11:30 a.m. to 2:00 p.m.  Come/cum and go…my lunch hour was 12:30 p.m. to 1:30 p.m., so I liked the idea that I would be arriving and masturbating about mid-way during the session time period.

I packed a little “masturbation workout” bag, which included my favorite vibrator, condoms for quick clean up, lubricant and at the last minute, I decided to include my clit cream.  I would put the clit cream on my clit before leaving my office that way I would be primed and ready to go when I arrived at the masturbatory club session.

I have to admit, I was really excited about my first masturbation club session.  The morning at the office was busy and the time really flew by.  I made a trip to the women’s restroom about 15-minutes before I left for lunch.  I slipped the clit cream in my pocket and headed down to the basement restroom.  No one was around, not that it would have mattered, but I liked knowing that I was all alone and could dab the clit cream on my tiny little clitty, use the restroom and wait for the tingle to warm up my pussy…oh, what a delight to have that warmth growing between my legs as I gathered my purse and headed out for “lunch.”

I headed out at exactly 12:20 p.m. and drove over to the hosting hotel.  I found a perfect parking place and plugged the meter for an hour and a half.  I knew I wouldn’t necessarily be there for that long but wanted to be sure I had plenty of meter time without getting a parking ticket.  I had received an e-mail during the morning giving the room number of this session…I double-checked my e-mail on my iPhone as I entered the hotel.

I made my way to the elevator with my little workout bag and then up to the room number. The room was at the end of the hallway on the 5th floor.  I gave the instructed three-knocks on the door and it opened.  A good looking guy in gym shorts and no shirt, socks or shoes, opened the door.  I stepped in and he closed the door behind me.

I wasn’t sure what to expect as far as the room lighting or set up would be but I was pleasantly surprised to find the heavy main curtains of the room open to allow natural sunlight in through the sheers that were drawn.  To assist in further lighting the room, all the room lights were on.  There was a “donation” bowl on the nearest room counter and I placed my $10 in the bowl and then the door man motioned for me to pick a spot and get comfortable.  He whispered as to not interrupt or break the mode of the folks that were already there, naked and masturbating.

I looked around to find two other women already engaged in a full vibrator induced masturbatory session.  One woman was lying on her back with her ass flush up against the headboard of one of the two queen-sized beds, her legs spread wide and moving her vibrator quickly in and out of her juicy pussy…her eyes were closed and one hand was squeezing one of her tits, pinching her nipple while the other hand maneuvered the vibrator with ease in and out of her pussy.  She was moaning and groaning in ecstasy…

the other gal was propped up with her back to the headboard, laying back on a couple of pillows facing out to the room.  She was strumming her clit with the fingers of one hand while cupping one of her tits with the other hand…she was moving her hips a little as she strummed herself.  There were several guys positioned around the two beds, watching the women while they stroked their cocks…some were sitting and yanking on their manmeat…one was merely sitting there with a hard-on, thoroughly engrossed in watching but not touching himself…there was truly an erotic quality about the activity in the room.  My pussy got even wetter as I took in the sexual site before me…the smell of sex filled the room…coupled with the clit cream that I had applied earlier, I was primed and ready to get naked and enjoy myself.  I liked what I was seeing…I could hardly wait to get my own clothes off and be a part of this situation.

I decided on a space over on the floor, taking advantage of several discarded pillows…I placed them next to the wall and then set my bag down and quickly got naked.  I folded my clothes up for easy access when I was finished.  Then I took out my lubricant and vibrator, placing a condom over my precious toy.  I then placed the pillows where they would cushion me as I laid with my ass facing the wall…I then placed my feet on the wall, in a bent leg position but one that I had assumed many times at home when masturbating.  This is a newer masturbatory pose I got from my yoga practice…I love how I’m able to spread my legs as far as I want or just place them almost straight up while I fuck myself with my vibrator…apparently the first gal I saw when I entered the room, enjoyed this position as well…after seeing her on display, I knew it was quite an appealing sex pose for others to watch.

I loved the sex-scented aroma of the room…it added to the excitement and energy of all around.  I put some lube on the tip of my vibrator and on the little rabbit ears and turned it on, then got into position and rubbed the head of the vibrator on my already wet pussy opening…ever so slowly I slid my toy into my hot, womanly depths.  I looked around and saw two of the four guys stroking their cocks and looking directly at me…I loved it, I loved knowing that there were eyes focusing on me and my masturbation…I began to fuck myself with my vibrator and cupped one tit in my free hand…

About this time one of the other two gals began to cum…one started moaning and groaning and then the gasping and little exclamations announcing that she had orgasmed.  There was some soft clapping acknowledging the delight of some of the others…this only heightened my excitement and I started to tune out those around me and concentrate on getting myself off…I closed my eyes and basked in the knowledge that I was “performing” for those that cared to watch there in the room.

As I worked myself into the sexual frenzy of my masturbation, every now and then I would hear someone getting himself off and then I heard the other gal get herself off…there seemed to be the opening and closing of the door as folks would come/cum and go…it didn’t take me long to get near the edge of my own orgasm…I had closed my eyes in an effort to concentrate a little better but for some reason, I wanted to see if there was anyone still there watching me, so I opened my eyes and much to my thrill there were about four guys, naked and yanking on their cocks and watching me fuck myself with my vibrator.  I didn’t see the other two gals, they must’ve finished themselves off, gathered themselves and left…I loved knowing that the remaining men were there not only jacking off but watching me fucking myself…well, that was all I needed and I was there, I started cumming and really got into voicing my orgasm…this caused three of the four guys to shoot off good loads, moaning and groaning, shooting cum everywhere.  I LOVED IT!!!!

I laid there a moment, letting the jolts of my orgasm finish shooting throughout my body, then I got up, went to the bathroom, cleaned myself with a warm wash rag, dressed, put away my vibrator and lube and left.  I felt so relaxed and satisfied.  I LOVED IT!!!

I was definitely going to be attending future masturbatory sessions of the Masturbation Club.  My first experience was all that I had hoped it would be!!

Tuesday…Fat Tuesday…

It’s cold and raining this morning, suppose to be like this the remainder of the day into the night.  I just may opt out of walking group this evening.  There’s supposed to be a Mardi Gras Fun Run this evening along with other fun activities in the Blue Dome District.  I just don’t think I’m up to it…for me making it through the work day without committing a murder or simple assault and battery will be a trick!!!  I do know that there won’t be any showing of the titties tonight at this particular Mardi Gras celebration…at least, not while I’m there IF I go…if it’s still raining after work, I’m out…I simply don’t like and can’t really stand the cold rain that well…I’ve learned to respect my body and getting chilled to the bone is preventable…I’ve done really well this year avoiding getting an upper respiratory event…I would like for it to continue, thus one must avoid unpleasant situations in which you find yourself cold and wet!!! Besides, what’s the point if you can’t show your tits and get beads??????  Seriously, this is Tulsa!!!  This isn’t New Orleans or Rio!!!!

I did sleep pretty good…I tried to let go of my anger and frustration…I responded with caution to the Edmond guy that I’ve been having an e-mail exchange. He’ll be in Tulsa on Wednesday and wants to meet over a cup of coffee, maybe dinner…maybe dinner????  Dear fucking gawd, say what you mean…you either want to meet over a fucking cup of coffee or you want to meet, talk, see if there is a “click” over a nice meal at my favorite little restaurant.  I reigned it in long enough to respond to his e-mail in a “nice” manner…he’s supposed to let me know what part of Tulsa he will be in tomorrow (Wednesday) late afternoon.  We’re supposed to meet right after I get off of work.  For some reason, I’m not nearly as excited as I once was…I’ve actually just about lost interest in this guy…so, we will see.

I will not be bringing him home and fucking him…for some reason, that just doesn’t appeal to me right now.  If I like him, I might cope a feel in the parking lot, but I’ve already decided I will not fuck him tomorrow evening. I don’t want to be disappointed like I’ve been so many times when I’ve met a guy, brought him home and fucked him only to discover that he’s a complete idiot and everything he bragged about was just that, bragging…my expectations are high…thus there is lots of room for disappointment.  So, I am proceeding with caution on this guy.

I could so easily crawl back in bed and call it a day, but I’ve already done that twice in the past 2 weeks…and I’m fixing to do it again on Friday.  I’ve promised a friend to be his designated driver to his prostate biopsy, so that will be the whole day of Friday.  Funny because it’s my Friday to back-up the phones…oh well, that’s the way it goes!!!

I have a feeling this is going to be a process trying to find another receptionist, which means I’ll be out on the phones a lot more on my days to back-up the receptionist…don’t you know I’m looking forward to that!!!  Coupled with how I’m feeling about my newest attorney and the bullshit over the billing invoices yesterday…I’m just so thrilled with the whole office deal right now.  Fuck’em all!!!! I’m going to do my best to keep my mouth shut and just do my job today but I’ll tell you, yesterday evening’s deal pushed the wrong button with me.

I need to get my ass in gear…funny, but there was a time when I was up and exercising, having my breakfast, got my shower and could be ready to head to the office easily by 8:00 a.m.  Now, I struggle…I struggle to get out of bed, I struggle to get in the shower…I struggle to get dressed…oh yeah, I’m grateful to have a job in this economy, but it has it’s price!!!

Have a great Fat Tuesday!!!!

I’ve Been Lurking On CL Again…

I can’t help it, when I get bored at work, I browse the CL ads for Tulsa.  A couple of weeks ago I can across a very interesting ad placed by a 52-year-old guy that was looking to provide a safe harbor for a woman in which he would give her a place to come/cum and the man to provide her all the oral sexual attention she desired.  Something like that, I didn’t take the time I normally do to copy the ad for future reference material.  Every now and then I slip up and frustrate myself.  I sent two responses to that ad which was placed about 2/18/2011.

Well, this afternoon I was taking a break from the drudgery of time entries and came across an ad by the same guy.  This is the ad:

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Well,… I really do not hold out much hope for this to be successful ! I believe I will receive many “scammers” wanting me to go to some stupid site , so they get paid for it. I am wanting to find a woman who really enjoys just laying on a comfortable bed. While a man performs oral sex on her. Nothing more than that ! This woman would not have to completely undress for this , unless she prefers it for comfort. I will remain completely dressed and do nothing but what I have described. I would like to find such a woman that would come to my home and allow me the erotic pleasure of doing this to her on a very regular basis.

I am very attractive man, tall outdoor rugged looking. In shape and very clean, so is my home. I am single, do not smoke or drink or use drugs of any kind. It is fine if you wish to do these things while here. I can keep some ” special refreshments ” on hand at my home so when you visit you are comfortable and can enjoy them. My home could be your escape from reality and the day to day “BS” that you go through. Think how nice it would be , to just spend a few hours out of your day being pleased and pampered with no worries about having to reciprocate to the man. You can just enjoy the time and the feeling of erotic pleasure without the hassles of any further contact or commitment. At a very nice location that only you are aware even exists. So you cannot be tracked down or spied on or found at all !!

WHY ? Do I post such a posting ? The truth is simple. I am self employed , I work at home. Have few friends and really no social life at all. I miss the tenderness of a woman’s skin and the smell of her clean fresh body. I have had terrible luck trying to meet a woman to date, let alone build and cultivate a long term relationship. So I have decided to post this. I am more of a “giver” than a “receiver” when it comes to intimacy. I always enjoy the pleasure I give to my partner. I miss it ! So I am hoping to find a woman who will allow me to please her in such a manner. No games, no expectations of anything more than what this is about. A concession of reality so I can still have some erotic fun and yet learn to live alone and just be happy for that. A compromise of my goals and dreams. Something is better than nothing at all !!!

I am very healthy and in good shape, eat healthy and exercise all that type of life. I have never had any health issues and do not want any now. I can assure you that you will be the only person I am sexually active with. You can virtually call me at a moments notice and come over for a brief erotic adventure for your pleasure just about any day or night. I realize you may be involved or married and have no wish for your real world to find out about your personal adventures. I can also assure you of complete secrecy and discretion. Only you and I will be aware of what we do. Or more appropriate what I do to you !!

I live on a beautiful piece of property that offers complete privacy with electric gates. Your vehicle and yourself cannot be seen by any passing vehicles. I live alone and have no children or family . So nobody will just “drop by “.

Your age is of no concern, your personal life is your private business not mine. I am a great listener and can also provide a nice meal if you are so inclined. I will pamper you and treat you with so much attention and the time will be of the finest erotic time possible. Contact me if you wish and ask what you desire to know. All responses will be kept in the strictest of confidence and deleted after responded to.

Well I have written my message, now I cast it off into the sea of CL to see if a woman opens it and reads it and wants to take advantage of it…

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I was so excited, I found this ad to be quite tantalizing the first time he posted something similar.  I quickly copied and pasted it to my private email address and then set about sending my first response to the ad he placed today.  In fact, I sent a couple of responses hoping to hear back from the guy…well, I connected with him and received a couple of e-mails from him.  We both promised to continue our exchange tonight, graduating to exchanging pics and see how we feel about setting up a face-to-face.

I’m excited…I like the sound of a man pleasuring and pleasing me at my whim…a sexual slave so-to-speak but in a vanilla context.  Guess we will see how this Liza CL experiment will go.

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Yep, that didn’t take long…got the guy’s pics, YIKES!!!!  His mama must be the one telling him he’s “good looking” cause I certainly don’t see it.  Long hair is a big turn off for me, especially when it’s flowing down your shoulders, unruly and unkept, I’m sure it’s clean though difficult to tell from the pictures he sent…one with a floppy brimmed hat, one without.  So much for the romantic part of the fantasy…dear gawd, why can’t the guy writing the ad be the man I’ve envisioned in my head, short haired, clean cut, almost casual preppy looking…rugged is one thing but deep back woods with no real upkeep…well, just not my cuppa!!!  The only way I would see a guy with long hair is if it is neatly pulled back in a pony tail…we’re talking 5 times longer than my hair!!!

Oh well, it was fun while it lasted.  Another CL let down!!!!
Makes me really wonder what I was thinking…if it sounds too good to be true, then it usually is!!!  Point made!!!

Monday, Valentine’s Day…

First, Happy Valentine’s Day. Valentine’s Day is bittersweet for me…I love the colors surrounding Valentine’s Day, red, white, pinks…but, the bittersweet part comes from Valentine’s Day being the anniversary of my mother’s death. She died 3-years ago on Valentine’s Day. For some reason, I’m feeling a little more down and miss my mom quite a bit or at least, she’s been heavy on my mind the past couple of weeks. I push through it like I did that day she died…some times it’s more difficult than others…this year, she’s been heavy on my mind.

I’m riding on the fabulous memories of all the nastiness me and my Texas gal pal enjoyed yesterday!!! We did a fun 3some yesterday morning with one of my lawyer pals from way back…and then last evening, my gal pal assisted me in one of my BDSM sessions…I think my submissive friend thoroughly enjoyed being dominated by two very sexual women. He was a great boy toy and endured 2-hours of erotic, sensual torture!!!

We have another couple of session coming up with a sprinkling of a couple of quality fuckbuddies that are going to try and visit us…it will be a VERY sexually fulfilling week into the weekend!!!

Today, it’s back to business as usual. The snow and ice are melting quite nicely…I heard on the morning weather that we have a 20% chance of rain tomorrow and Wednesday so that should wash away the rest of the ice and snow. The temps are supposed to stay anywhere in the mid-50s up to the 70s throughout this whole week. I’m pretty thrilled about that…while there will be some more cold weather and even some more ice and snow before we head “officially” into spring…I think for the most part, we’ve seen the worst of winter this year. At least, that’s my hope.

Time to hit the shower and get this day underway…Happy Valentine’s Day!!!!

Sunday Reflections 2/13/2011…

Another beautiful, sunny, warming day!!!  The snow is melting really well and I’m so thrilled that it will all be gone by the middle of the week ahead.  Of course, that’s if the temps continue to rise each day…if the storms come that are predicted for next weekend, it will wash all this crap away!!!!  YEAH!!!!!

My gal pal made it to Tulsa last night…she was a little later than we originally planned but that was okay because I got caught up watching stupid break-up movies.  We had pizza and opened a bottle of wine…we enjoyed each other’s company getting caught up on what’s going on in each other’s lives until about 2:00 a.m.  We headed to bed to try and get some rest before this morning’s session.

My friend is “on-call” with her job, so apparently she was up about every hour on the hour fielding problems and such for her company.  I got her up around 8:15 so we could eat a bite, then get showered and dolled up for our 10:00 play time.

Me and my friend thoroughly enjoyed working my friend over this morning…I think he enjoyed us as much as we enjoyed him…we’re such a good little F-F team and the M in this 3some was delighted with his experience.

We grabbed some lunch, catching up on e-mails, taking a little afternoon siesta before preparing for our 6:00 p.m. BDSM – 2-hour session this evening.  I started briefing my friend over lunch as to the basic outline of what we will be doing to this next “victim.”  My gal pal is so excited, she said she’s been using her toys thinking of all the ways I will keep our action moving along in tonight’s session…I think we will all enjoy the naughty, nasty fun!!

It’s going to be a busy but fun week ahead.  I’m back in walking group on Monday and Friday after work and then Tuesday night we have a 3some playdate set…right now Thursday evening is open but Friday night we have what I am calling a “date” night combined with another BDSM session with my least favorite submissive.  He will come over to my house and my gal pal and I will “prep” him with the vibrating panties before having him take us to a nice dinner…I’m still trying to decide where I want us to dine on Friday night so he can make the proper reservications…then we will return back to my house and my gal pal and I will put him through his paces for an hour or so and then send him home after requiring him to leave a load of cum!!  I am looking forward to putting him through the humiliation paces…making him wear women’s panties, having to strap the little vibrating device under his balls where me and my gal pal can turn it on at opportune times throughout our dinner…I love watching his face and seeing how well he tries to stay on track with the conversation…not to mention watching him worry about whether or not our wait-person can hear the vibrator going off…it will be a great time, for sure!!!

Depending on my gal pal’s work schedule and whether or not she has to go back on-site with her work next weekend will determine when she departs for home in Texas…so, we’ll make the most of the time she’s hear and grab all the naughty, nasty fun we can manage!!!

Saturday…

I got a good night’s sleep and am not getting around and getting a few things done around the house before my galpal arrives later today. We’re going to play it by ear as far as doing anything tonight. We want to be well rested for tomorrow (Sunday’s) naughty, nasty adventures I’ve got lined up.

I’m thrilled the sun is shining and the temp is climbing…come on 50 to 60 degree weather…melt that snow, melt that snow!!!!

I’m trying to keep ahead of my little depression…Valentine’s Day is one of my favorite Hallmark holidays, but it is also a bittersweet deal for me as my mom died on Valentine’s Day, it will be 3-years ago on this Valentine’s Day. I think I’m amazed at how much it still engulfs me. I miss my mother, I miss my dad…but for some reason, I feel as though it’s harder for me about my mother’s death. When my dad went down with his catestrophic stroke and heart attack, I knew he would eventually die. I guess I was a little more prepared for that life event. With my mother, we really didn’t know if she would live or die…and then when she took that last turn for the worst, well, it was over and done with before I could really digest it all.

Life is cruel and does not wait for anyone to get onboard…you either pick up your pieces and move forward or you continue to struggle and eventually find your way…or you accept what is given you and move on…I look at my personal situation as one where I have missed a few beats but not anything that stopped where I was in my life other than backing off a bit on my nasty social life…it will take time…big losses take time to get over and I know that…I’m dealing with it.

I do love the red of Valentine’s Day…red, pink, white…I love those colors together and love to dress up in red…I look pretty good in red!!!

Anyway, lots to get done today and definitely looking to enjoy my friend and her visit this weekend into next week!!!!