The end of a very trying week. I would like to think I’m at the end of the trying part, but the reality is that the state of limbo continues. With no papers to allow us, the family, to assume responsibility for my dad’s health care directives, we’re pretty much at the mercy of the doctors, hospital and social services…what kind of life is this? Medical technology has evolved to the point where we keep vegetables alive when they should be allowed to go…
I’ll be fine, I’m just going through the emotional cycles, which is physically exhausting. I’m trying to stay busy and keep myself distracted but sitting in the parking lot of the hospital last night found me thinking the same thoughts I was thinking when I was up there with my mom. The big difference in this experience and that experience is that I held the health care directive papers in my purse. I could end the debauchal and let Mom pass…with Dad, I can’t give him the peace he seeks…at least, no peace for his body.
We’ll see…I’ve sent my youngest brother on a mission to the VA in Muskogee as a friend mentioned that the VA requires the veterans to keep a health care directive in their files. I vaguely remember we made it a point to put my youngest brother on Dad’s file as someone that could have access to Dad’s medical information…not that that is a directive, but there’s a snowball’s chance in Hell that there might be one in his file…we’re going to hope there is which would work for the current hospital, which just might bring this whole mess to a conclusion!!
I’m trying to get geared to seeing how the various men’s basketball conferences across the nation finish up…the Big Dance Selection Show is Sunday and I can’t wait!!! Another great distraction for me in the midst of this life storm!!! I’m trying to decide if I want to splurge and do 4 brackets this year…that would be a whole $20…not all that much when you can win about $300. I came in second last year and won $116…not bad, not bad at all!!!
It is sad that my Sooners won’t even be considered…they got beat in the first round of the Big 12 Conference Tournament…the question is, can Kansas pull it out and win not only the Big 12 Conference Tournament Title but the Big March Madness Dance title??????
What about naughty and nasty? Life was so simply when all I had to do was think about feeding my hungry pussy!!!
Have a great Friday and an even better weekend!!!