I’m struggling with the financial diet. I am slowly but surely climbing out of the financial hole that I dug myself into. I’m far from being “good”…but, I’m trying, I’m working on getting my credit cards paid off.
It is difficult to admit that I’m a shop-a-holic…but, I am. Plain and simple. I am working on cutting up all my credit cards but one or two. I’m still trying to decide which two I can and will keep and which ones are done, closed and cut-up.
Yes, I have to cut-up the credit cards. Do you know how painful that is? Do you know how difficult that is?
I blame no one but myself. I’ve been self-indulgent and careless in my spending habits. I don’t like that I haven’t had the discipline to say “no” to myself…but, it is imperative that I do so now.
I’ve made several “have to’s” that I will abide by until I dig out of this mess…I will only shop with cash. For some reason, I think more about what I’m doing and purchasing when I have to use cash.
I’ve got a long ways to go, but maybe it will stick this time. I feel like I’m such a failure at times but then I pick myself up and move forward…always moving forward…
Optimally, I would love to find a very rich man to help me out of my dilemma…okay, hard core reality, that’s a bit of a fairy tale that more than likely won’t come true…I laugh at myself because I think, hey, I could fuck him as much as he wanted if he would pay off all of my current debts…maybe he would even buy me a really incredible sports car to drive…maybe I would even wear a couple of diamonds and such…
And then I realize, if I cleaned up my tendencies to indulge myself, I could afford to buy my own sports car…I could afford to buy my own diamonds.
How’s the financial diet coming? It’s coming, it’s a continual work in progress!